If anyone's ventured onto my lj proper
in the last few hours, you can see, yes, I have changed it again.
Yes, it's very red. I was going to go with blue or white, or even black, in the beginning, but playing around with PS the red felt right.
One of the Discovery Channels tonight was re-airing Inside 9/11
. I watched the first 15 minutes, up until the first crash, and then I realized that if I stayed up and watched the whole thing I probably wouldn't be falling asleep very quickly.
This is going to be the 4th anniversary. 4th is kind of a weird number, in between 3 and 5 -- both powerful, meaningful numbers. We think of things in 5s and 10s, mostly, and in a year we can look back and realize that it's been half a decade since it happened. Since the world changed, if only in the eyes of some. In comparison, the number 4 doesn't seem so special.
But every year that goes by we know more about what happened; we can reconstruct and make sense of the timeline of events and actions as we can never make sense of the reasons why. And no matter how much time goes by, I know I'll never be able to able to think about the people on those planes (whether they were on Flight 11 and could only imagine their fate or on Flight 93 and knew too well what was happening), those in the Towers and in the Pentagon and also those in Washington, D.C. who were spared thanks to sheer human determination.
It's in our nature to avoid things that make us feel bad, and goodness knows there's enough bad feeling going around lately with Katrina and her aftermath. But I would hope that everyone would take the time this weekend to watch a bit of meaningful 9/11 programming, visit a memorial or in some other way reflect. I won't tell you what to think. I just ask that you do.